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29/01/2008

过年回家?

今年也许是我过年在家呆的时间最短的一年了,现在还在西安忙。
今天偶尔突然有点想家,有点想父母,刚准备打电话,父亲的电话就打过来了。没有催促的意思,只是告诉我注意身体。
其实这种感觉也挺好的,weird but real, sad but true.
 
今年过年不收礼呀,收礼只收广告费呀!
09/01/2008

老博客,新用途。

本已经不玩博客了,现在又重新拾起,颇有些怀旧的色彩。
 
Space的持久性令我刮目相看,blogspot已经彻底被“有关部门”踩死,也只能继续space之旅了……
 
网站慢慢在进入正轨,但还需要撑很长时间,撑到有投资。还是很有信心的!
13/08/2006

Changed Place!

Because of many reasons including dragging spead and un-handy photo uploading solutions, I choose finally to leave this space and applyed a new one
.
This place will not add any new blog artical, photo, and other stuffs.
Thanks for your understan and surporting!
 
My new blog's link:
 
10/08/2006

A Real Crucial Time: The Crossroad

Damn, My GRE score sucks! I'm totally confused lately and dunno which way to go for the future. It's like I'm now at a cross road and I must take a side soon.
 
At one hand, I can carry on to take other exams such as TOEFL or IELTS and seek for the paveway to the graduate study abroad. This is the keep-on-academic path.
 
At the other hand, I may choose to cease the exam preparing and find a job to start my career. Well, the academic way will still be the ultimate goal but I may go for it after some rest and introspection, and of course some social expirence, too.
 
My family, especially my father is keen to advocate the first way and willing to give me financial aid (Though not much).
 
I found it truly difficult to decide now, may you give me some advice?

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15/07/2006

Long Time no see ya!

Well, I got a terrible half year and suffered different insanities.

First, repress myself to the consequence of a canceled GRE and took it for the second time. But at least I know this gonna be the last time anyway. Now I'm waiting for the results eagerly but calmly. So wish me luck.

Second, I tried once about the operation of the middle bone of my nose but it was terribly failed my every single desire. It was hurt, side-effected and horribly done. So I'm in a big  regret in the after few months. Recently, I cannot even take the side-effects and made up my mine to combat again with my fate.

Third,  I finally  finished my  awful trip with my "beloved" NWU. The graduating paper and its testing works as well as the graduate ceremony were all to me difficult to bear. No details will be discussed here because I  don't even wanna recall them from my memories.

OK, stop complaining and be strong! Why? Just because who I am - A metalhead!

03/01/2006

Finished Exams

Thanx for the senior year and we only got 2 subjects examing and I finished them and got back home. Warm home!!!
22/10/2005

Just Canceled,unhappy now...

just finished my GRE trying for the first yime this morning and the reason why I say so is be cause I made a crucial decision to cancel the score. Though I was quite confortable with the Quantative sections and most of the Reading Conprehension questions, as usual, My Analogy and Anatomy are the Achillis's heel... 
03/10/2005

Just having a break home

Seemed my AW was not so good, at least not as I have ever expected.
 
Not so long I'm heading to the biggest turning-over--Verbal and Quantitive Sections...
 
Just cross your fingers for me.   :-)
12/09/2005

Back to downtown

Ooopppps!!!
 
After long time on the new campus, I got back to the city...
It took more than one hour by bus, and this is my first time go back.
 
Today I'm heading to The GRE text center in Xi'an Foreign Language University whit is hard to find. Eventually I need to get here in an internet cafe to check out their phone numbers and than later make a call to comfirm.
 
Because the Analytical Writing test is in the morning on Wednsday this week, and it is quite early for 8:30. So I need to be cofident about the text center's exact location.
 
Well, gotta go. And please cross your finger for me...
27/08/2005

Just back!

I just came back from Beijing yesterday and it was quite a expirence.
 
20 days of study about the GRE exames, made my belief of being out of broad more clearly but a little bit harsh. The biggest problem now is VACABULARY. I used to assume myself a "vacabulary monster", because I never trully focused on learning them by heart but still got lots of words using. But GRE is not such kind of games that I can easily master. The words sometimes are quite weird.
 
03/08/2005

In Beijing

A-hah, I'm now in Beijing, the capital of China. Very hot wether.
 
I'm here taking the New Oriental school's GRE training. It's already certain that I'm gonna take the October's(Oct,22.) test and I need to take the Computer text(Analytical Writing Exam) in advance in Sep,14. So it's quite tough cos I don't really have much time for the prepairing. But I think I will do my best!~
16/07/2005

My Designs...

Long time not being here.
 
Lately I started to learn some basics of Photoshop designing stuff. Well, very basic.
 
I got 4 works finished this afternoon. May you give me some advice?
 
Please click the pics for the real-scale version.
 
 
 
12/06/2005

Granger came to our university!

Clive Granger, a big name in economics acdemic field, who is also the winner of 2003 Nobel Prize of Economics. He's from Swansea City, Welsh.

He came to China for the 10th anniversary ceremony of CCER. And it was said he wanted to have a look of Chinese Tera-cotta Musuem, then giving a lecture in our university was just a event out of plan. But anyway, there was so many people waitted to see him even hours before the speech and it was good for us in northwestern China and in small university.

He contributed much on Econometrics especially the Time Series. And it is hard to realize by me by now.

Ok, here 's the live pic:

 

 

 

 

02/06/2005

Where am I? See this lyrics!

Under the Banner of the Unholy Spirit

                                     by: Lords of Decadence

                                    album: 2004 - Cognitive Note Of Discord

I'm walking through eternal darkness,
I will never see the dawn.
I'm walking through an ocean of sins,
I will never get out of it.
The morass already touches my chin,
no one will ever get out of it.
There's endless hate in my pride heart,
it has been growing since my start!

Under the Banner of the Unholy Spirit
thousands of warriors fuse to one great might!
We condemn the lies, there's just one solution:
There's no compromise, we call out to revolution!

Hypocrisy rules the world,
now for more than two thousand years!
I can see because I am willing to see,
but together with me, there're just a few.
We can gather only a small crowd at our sides,
fighting blade at blade against the enemy "world".
We are just a few, but we are unified:
Not against each other - Together, we fight like one man!

I take my sword and cut your throat -
The might let you freeze with fear!
With my look I take your breath -
Close your eyes and welcome the Death!
The deaf and the dumb,
they line my way.
The blended and the blind
try to cringe into my mind!

Promotion sux!!!

Still promoting my paper. I gave it to several instructors in my college and seemed no response at all. I knew their English is not so good but used to be hopefully. Well, the truth I had to accept.

This morning, I sent it to the host of Pinggu.org BE section. Hope he can really help me.

28/05/2005

My Collection of New 2005 Albums!!!

├<$$ 2005 Fresh & New $$>
│ ├<Aborted - 2005 - The Archaic Abattoir - 192k [Brutal]>
│ ├<Arise - 2005 - The Beautiful New World - VBR 192-320k  [Death]>
│ ├<At Vance - 2005 - Chained[Retail] - VBR 192-320k - [Power]>
│ ├<Beyond Twilight - 2005 - Section X[Promo] - VBR 192-320k [Progressive]>
│ ├<Brainstorm -  2005 - Liquid Monster [Retailed] - 256k [Power]>
│ ├<Bruce Dickinson - 2005 - Tyranny Of Souls - VBR 192-320k [Traditional]>
│ ├<Candlemass - 2005 - Chandlemass[Promo] - VBR 192-320k [Doom]>
│ ├<Catamenia - 2005 - Winternight Tragedies - VBR 192-320 [Melodic Black]>
│ ├<Centinex - 2005 - World Declension[Promo] - VBR 220 [Death]>
│ ├<Disgorge (US) - 2005 - Parallels of Infinite Torture - 192k [Brutal]>
│ ├<Divine Empire - 2005 - Method Of Execution - VBR 192-320k [Death]>
│ ├<Domain - 2005 - Last Days Of Utopia - VBR 192-320k [Power]>
│ ├<Dream Theater - 2005 - Octavarium - 192k [Progressive]>
│ ├<Elysian Fields - 2005 - Suffering G.O.D. Almighty - 192k [Melodic Black]>
│ ├<Epica - 2005 - Consign To Oblivion[Retailed] - 192k [Gothic]>
│ ├<Equilibrium - 2005 - Turis Fratyr - VBR 192-320k [Viking]>
│ ├<Exmortem - 2005 - Nihilistic Contentment - VBR 192-320k [Death]>
│ ├<Extol - 2005 - The Blueprint Dives - 192k [Melodic Death]>
│ ├<Falconer - 2005 - Grime vs. Grandeur - 192k [Power]>
│ ├<Goat OF Mendes - 2005 - A Book Of Shadows - 192k - [Folk&Black]>
│ ├<Grave Digger - 2005 - The Last Supper - VBR 192-320k [Speed]>
│ ├<Green Carnation - 2005 - The Quiet Offspring - 192k [Progressive]>
│ ├<Heidevolk - 2005 - De Strijdlust is Geboren - VBR 192-320k [Folk]>
│ ├<ISIS - 2005 - Oceanic Remixes, Reinterpretations [Sludge]>
│ ├<Ivanhoe - 2005 - Walk In Mindfields [Progressive]>
│ ├<Judas Priest - 2005 - Angel Of Retribution  - VBR 224-256k [NWOBHM]>
│ ├<Lacrimosa - 2005 - Lichtgestalt - VBR 192-320k [Gothic]>
│ ├<Leaves Eyes - 2005 - Vinland Saga [Advanced] - 192k [Gothic]>
│ ├<Magellan - 2005 - Symphony for a Misanthrope - VBR 224k[Progressive]>
│ ├<Masterplan - 2005 - Aeronautics - 192k [Power]>
│ ├<Metalium - 2005 - Demons of Insanity Chapter Five - VBR 224k [Power]>
│ ├<Midnattsol - 2005 - Where Twilight Dwells [Gothic]>
│ ├<Moonsorrow - 2005 - Verisaekeet[promo] - VBR 192-320k [Black]>
│ ├<Nettlethrone - 2005 - Blueprint[Demo] - VBR 220k [Death]>
│ ├<Nightrage - 2005 - Descent Into Chaos - 192k [Melodic Death]>
│ ├<Novembers Doom - 2005 - The Pale Haunt Departure - VBR 224 [Doom]>
│ ├<Pantheist - 2005 - Amartia - VBR 192-320k [Funeral Doom]>
│ ├<Powerwolf  - 2005 - Return in Bloodred - 160k [Power]>
│ ├<Pro-Pain - 2005 - Prophets Of Doom - 192k [Thrash]>
│ ├<Raising Fear - 2005 - Mythos - VBR 224-320k [Power]>
│ ├<Rapture - 2005 - Silent Stage - VBR 244k [Melodic Death]>
│ ├<Reckless Tide - 2005 -Repent Or Seal Your Fate  - VBR 224k [Thrash]>
│ ├<Reinfection - 2005 - Peace Through Killing - VBR 192-320k  [Brutal]>
│ ├<Runemagick - 2005 - Envenom - VBR 192-320k [Doom]>
│ ├<Sentenced - 2005 - The Funeral Album - VBR 192-320k [Progressive]>
│ ├<Spiritual Beggars - 2005 - Demons - 320k [Doom]>
│ ├<The Crest - 2005 - Vain City Chronicles[Promo] - VBR 192-320k [Gothic]>
│ ├<Thunderstone - 2005 - Tools of Destruction - VBR 192-320k [Power]>
│ ├<Torian - 2005 - Dreams Under Ice - VBR 220 [Power]>
│ ├<Trivium - 2005 - Ascendancy - VBR 244k [Melodic Death]>
│ └<Winterlong - 2005 - Winterlong - VBR 192-320k [Power]>

 

26/05/2005

My first paper has been finished!

Well.well.well.

After several days' hard work, my first paper has been finally finished. I was very exited.

The paper's title I still don't like and maybe I will change it at next draft:

A Case Analysis about Irrational Behavior: Economics and Psychology Perspectives

3137 words all togerther of this paper.

I will work on about it and try to publish it soon...

 

 

 

20/05/2005

A moving song!

About the band:

Evergrey is a "Modern Dark Progressive Power/Heavy Metal" band from Famous Gotnenburg, Sweden. Their music themes are mostly about Fear, Darkness, Paranoia, Confusion, Religion. They formed in 1995 and still active now with the label of "Inside Out".

 

 

About the Album:

This Song is from the 2003 album: Recreation Day (The cover is as below.), witch is a fairly great album.

The song was also released as a Single in 2003.

 

About the song:

Here is the lyrics:

I'm Sorry

I painted a picture of you
Your soul was red & your mind was blue
Destiny lad a light on my creation
This dream I had made a slave of my passion
Reality was always too far away

And we were happy until it came too close 1 day
Suddenly I faced the truth of my dream
My love had only been a picture, a scene
I suppose I needed to believe
Didn't want to see you had never been close to me

But I'm sorry
This illusion has caused you a lot of pain
And I have no solution
I'll try to never be back again

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

I painted a picture of you
My dream was a lie & the lie became truth
Reality held his breath too long
It's disgusting what dreams can do

But I'm sorry
This illusion has caused you a lot of pain
And I have no solution
I'll try to never be back again

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry


 

 

Here is a review by a cool guy who keeps the same point of view with me(From metal-archives.com):

 

Briliant song - 100%

Written by When_I_unleash_hell on September 6th, 2004

This is, by far, Evergrey's best song. It starts off with a calm, gentle piano, preparing your feelings for the flood of emotions they will get in the chorus. Tom has an awesome voice, and shows it off here, with a mixture of calm, almost whispering voices, and epic clean screams, even surpassing Bruce Dickinson! The chorus, especially the first time, sends you such a load of emotions that it sends chills right down your spine. Awesome song, and I will enjoy it for a long time.

 

Well, it's a great pity I can't showyou how the song really sounds like, so if you believe in my recommendation, please do try to find it and have a listen to. Hope you have a good time!

17/05/2005

Social Psychology is somewhat obsessive!

Last Friday, I borrowed a book named The Social Animal from liborery. It is a famous book in Social Psychology field. Later I will write more of my thinking of it, now I’m gonna say something about the framework and topics of this book and say something about the relationships between Social Psychology and Behaviorial Economics.

This book is a textbook simplized intentionally by the author —  Elliote Aronson .

There are some important topics discussed in a certain sequeance:

1.     1. Conformity

2.     2. Mass Conmmunication, Propaganda, and Persuasion

3.     3. Social Congnition

4.     4. Self – Justification

5.     5. Human Aggression

6.     6. Prejudice

 

Most of these subjects are quite exiting to me, because I’m quite interested in human beings as well as their behavior and the pyschological route and what the effection toward the real world is, especially economically.

One of the main questions whitch BE means to answear is the irrational behavior of mass and its impact on economy. This question is quite tough and very different from the main-stream economics in both methodology and object ways. But if we can somehow work it out, it will dramatically change our lives without a doubt! And one to think the problem and try to work on it cannot take it for granted using the Neo-Classical ways. He or she should try to adope the expiremental method to help. More specificly, it needs back–ups from many other subjects like Pschology, Sociology, Anthropology and so on.

 I guess I’m gonna dedicate my entire life to this. It’s not only some kind of passion but a responsibility.

 

 

15/05/2005

Talk to me, be free!

Thanx, man! Hope you can always have a look here.

14/05/2005

What is Petagram?

This is perhaps the most comprehensive writing I have seen on the Pentagram. My thanks to Bill Kilborn for allowing me to reprint it here.

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The pentagram has long been associated with mystery and magic. It is the simplest form of star shape that can be drawn unicursally, with a single line, hence it is sometimes called the Endless Knot. Other names are the Goblin Cross, the Pentalpha, the Witch Foot, the Devils Star and the Seal of Solomon (more correctly attributed to the hexagram).

It has long been believed to be a potent protection against evil and demons, hence a symbol of safety, and was sometimes worn as an amulet for happy homecoming. The old folk-song : Green Grow the Rushes, O! refers to the use of the pentagram above doors and windows in the line: Five is the symbol at your door.

The potency and associations of the pentagram have evolved throughout history. Today it is an ubiquitous symbol of Neo-Pagans with much depth of magickal and symbolic meaning.

The pentagram symbol today is ascribed many meanings and deep significance, though much of this is very recent. However, it has been used throughout history and in many contexts.

The earliest known use of the pentagram dates back to around the Uruk period around 3500BC at Ur of the Chaldees in Ancient Mesopotamia where it was found on potsherds together with other signs of the period associated with the earliest known developments of written language. In later periods of Mesopotamian art, the pentagram was used in royal inscriptions and was symbolic of imperial power extending out to the four corners of the world. Amongst the Hebrews, the symbol was ascribed to Truth and to the five books of the Pentateuch. It is sometimes, incorrectly, called the Seal of Solomon (see Hexagram) though its usage was in parallel with the hexagram. In Ancient Greece, it was called the Pentalpha, being geometrically composed of five A's. Unlike earlier civilizations, the Greeks did not generally attribute other symbolic meanings to the letters of their alphabet, but certain symbols became connected with Greek letter shapes or positions (eg Gammadion, Alpha-Omega). The geometry of the pentagram and its metaphysical associations were explored by the Pythagoreans (after Pythagoras 586-506BC) who considered it an emblem of perfection. Together with other discovered knowledge of geometric figures and proportion, it passed down into post-Hellenic art where the golden proportion may be seen in the designs of some temples.

Early Christians attributed the pentagram to the Five Wounds of Christ and from then until medieval times, it was a lesser-used Christian symbol. Prior to the time of the Inquisition, there were no evil associations to the pentagram. Rather its form implied Truth, Religious Mysticism and the work of The Creator. The Emperor Constantine I who, after gaining the help of the Christian church in his military and religious takeover of the Roman Empire in 312 AD, used the pentagram, together with the chi-rho symbol (a symbolic form of cross) in his seal and amulet.

However, it was the cross (a symbol of suffering) rather than the pentagram (a symble of truth) that was used as a symbol by the Church which subsequently came to power and whos manifest destiny was to usurp the supreme power of the Roman Empire.

The annual church feast of Epiphany, celebrating the visit of the three Magi to the infant Jesus as well as the Church's mission to bring truth to the Gentiles had as its symbol the pentagram, (although in present times the symbol has been changed to a five-pointed star in reaction to the Neo-Pagan use of the pentagram).

In the legend of Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, the pentagram was Sir Gawain's glyph, inscribed in gold on his shield, symbolizing the five knightly virtues - generosity, courtesy, chastity, chivalry and piety.

In Medieval times, the Endless Knot was a symbol of Truth and was a protection against demons. It was used as an amulet of personal protection and to guard windows and doors. The pentagram with one point upwards symbolized summer; with two points upwards, it was a sign for winter. During the long period of the Inquisition, there was much promulgation of lies and accusations in the interests of orthodoxy and elimination of heresy. The Church lapsed into a long period of the very diabolism it sought to oppose. The pentagram was seen to symbolize a Goats Head or the Devil in the form of Baphomet and it was Baphomet whom the Inquisition accused the Templars of worshipping. The Dominicans of the Inquisition moved their attention from the Christian heretics to the Pagan Witches, to those who only paid lip-service to Christianity but still followed an Old Religion and to the wise-ones amongst them. In the purge on Witches, other horned Gods such as Pan became equated with the Devil (a Christian concept) and the pentagram, the folk symbol of security, for the first time in history, was equated with evil and was called the Witches Foot.

The Old Religion and its symbols went underground, in fear of the Church's persecution, and there it stayed, gradually withering, for centuries.

In the foundation of Hermeticism, in hidden societies of craftsmen and scholarly men, away from the eyes of the Church and its paranoia, the proto-science of alchemy developed along with its occult philosophy and cryptical symbolism. Graphical and geometric symbolism became very important and the period of the Renaissance emerged.

The concept of the microcosmic world of Man as analogous to the macrocosm, the greater universe of spirit and elemental matter became a part of traditional western occult teaching, as it had long been in eastern philosophies, As Above, So Below. The pentagram, the Star of the Microcosm, symbolized Man within the microcosm, representing in analogy the Macrocosmic universe.

The upright pentagram bears some resemblance to the shape of man with his legs and arms outstretched. In Tycho Brahe's Calendarium Naturale Magicum Perpetuum (1582) occurs a pentagram with human body imposed and the Hebrew for YHSVH associated with the elements. An illustration attributed to Brae's contemporary Agrippa (Henry Cornelius Agrippa von Nettesheim) is of similar proportion and shows the five planets and the moon, at the center point, the genitalia. Other illustrations of the period by Robert Fludd and Leonardo da Vinci show geometric relationships of man to the universe.

Later, the pentagram came to be symbolic of the relationship of the head to the four limbs and hence of the pure concentrated essence of anything (or the spirit) to the four traditional elements of matter, earth, water, air and fire - spirit is The Quintessence.

In Freemasonry, Man as Microprosopus was and is associated with the five-pointed Pentalpha. The symbol was used, interlaced and upright for the sitting Master of the Lodge. The geometric properties and structure of the Endless Knot were appreciated and symbolically incorporated into the 72 degree angle of the compasses, the Masonic emblem of virtue and duty. The origins of Freemasonry are lost in the depths of history, obscured by the traditional Craft secrecy of the order, but there are signs throughout history of the associations of craftsmanship and ritual and symbolism that have remained known only to a few, and the history of the pentagram has remained occluded in the same kind of mystery. The women's branch of Freemasonry uses the five pointed Eastern Star with two points up as its emblem. Each point commemorates a heroine of biblical lore.

No known graphical illustration associating the pentagram with evil appears until the nineteenth century. Eliphas Levi Zahed (actually the pen name of Alphonse Louis Constant, a defrocked French Catholic Abb) illustrates the upright pentagram of microcosmic man beside an inverted pentagram with the goats head of Baphomet. It is this illustration and juxtaposition that has led to the concept of different orientations of the pentagram being good and evil.

Against the rationalism of the 18th century came a reaction in the 19th century with the growth of a new mysticism owing much to the Holy Qabalah, the ancient oral tradition of Judaism relating the cosmogony of God and the universe and the moral and occult truths of their relationship to Man. It is not so much a religion as a system of understanding based upon symbolism and the numerical and alphabetical interrelationships of words and concepts, the Gematria.

The Golden Dawn did much to advance and disseminate the roots of modern Hermetic Qabalah around the world in its time of strength (from 1888 to around the start of the First World War), and through the writings and work of a number of its adepts and adherents have come some of the most important ideas of todays Qabalist philosophy and magick. In the 1940's Gerald Gardner adopted the pentagram with two points upward as the sigil of second degree initiation in the newly emergent, Neo-Pagan rituals of Witchcraft, later to become known as Wicca. The one-point upward pentagram together with the upright triangle symbolized third degree initiation. (A point downwards triangle is the symbol of First Degree Initiates).

It was not until the late 1960's that the pentagram again became an amuletic symbol to be worn. Co-incidentally with the rise of popular interest in Witchcraft and Wicca and the publication of many books (including several novels) on the subject, there was a reaction to the Church.

In its extreme, one aspect of that reaction was in the establishment of the satanic cult - The Church of Satan - by Anton LaVay. For its emblem, this cult adopted the inverted pentagram after the Baphomet image of Eliphas Levi. The reaction of the Christian church was to condemn as evil all who took the pentalpha as a symbol and even to condemn the symbol itself, much as had been the post-war attitude to the swastika.

The distinction between the point-upwards and point-downwards pentagram forms became accentuated in the minds of Pagans and led to the concepts of white Witchcraft and black. Those who took on board the strong personal ethical code of Wicca, the Wiccan Rede of 'An it harm none, do what you will' did not wish to be tarred with the same brush as the Satanists whos philosophy is one of the domination of the spirit by the physical body - the priority of matter and physical existence.

Hence, despite the use and the different meaning of the inverted pentagram as a symbol of Gardnerian initiation, other Wiccans, notably in the USA where the fundamentalist Christians are particularly aggressive to those who do not share their beliefs, are against any usage of the symbol. It is sad to say that even the use of the upright pentagram gives rise to social discrimination against Pagans in some communities.

Otherwise, the pentagram or pentacle has become firmly established as a common Neo-Pagan and Wiccan symbol, acquiring many aspects of mystique and associations that are today often considered to be ancient folk-lore !

The antiquity of the pentagram is certain; its meanings and associations have evolved and richened throughout its history. Its use within modern Neo-Paganism as a group symbol is as important as the cross has been in the history of Christianity and it is in the ubiquity and the attributed meanings of the symbol that its potency lies rather than in its antiquity. From the Earth aware attitudes and respect of life of modern Pagans has already come the movement towards protecting and conserving the ecology and resources of our planet. Perhaps they will see the dawn of a real new age of hope or perhaps just the end of an age of humanity.

 

My new works!

My new works, lyrics, peom, whatever.

It contains some of my own expirence. it begins with calm and romantic mood but changes completely later on. At the end, it's totally despire and sad.

Enjoy and welcome any advice:

 

Piece of Your Heart

My Goddess, my queen
Have I ever told you?
Have I ever mentioned?
There was a space in your heart
that I cherished

It’s like a room in a crystal palace.
It’s like an era of all time

Remember one day you let me see it?
You let me touch it
Kiss it and have it

Oh, my lord, I need to confess:
I’ve taken it without ever telling her
I took it for good, forever
She never knew though it seemed still there
But it was never hers anymore, at least not only

With soft caress, I embraced the delicate little thing
Gentle strokes have I put on it for times, and times…

It’s like a plant
It has been breed in my own heart
There’s also a space in mine
Like a field fertilized
Hoped one day a big green tree with its vertex
Heading towards the blue sky
Heading to the sands of time

You needed to believe me it’s not a lie
When you were not sure about it,
just look into my left eye


But another day,
You took the piece of your heart away
You tore it apart rudely
with the “field” of it in my heart flooded by blood
The gory thing bled still
The “plant’s” root was dig out
Without water, finally it faded

Under the crimson sky,
Nothing could still head high
Eyes could no longer keep dry
The flooding tears have already wrecked my pride

Darkness descends
Evil unfolds
The judgment day has finally arrived
Everything distorted

With fire burning on my heart,
I saw your face
I embraced the piece of heart

I knew it was only my illusion

O, thy sins!
I could not bear anymore
And then took your breath away
Somebody please just take me to the never, never land.

Goddess of tears, queen of misery
With these shadows of solitude desolations
I got the nightmares.
In the dark, I cannot see.
I could never open my left eye
And I will not revise
I refused to try

Now live in pain
Effort in vein
In the dreams of the past
Dizzy felling is rushing my brain
My world cracks into drain

With tears I kiss your ruby lips

in the neverending rain...

The History of DOOM

This is another good introductory article from doom-metal.com disgussing about what the history of DOOM is like,enjoy:

The History of Doom Metal

 

Early doom bands of the seventies... 


 Most people agree that Black Sabbath is amongst the most influential bands for all heavy metal in general, and Doom-Metal is no exception. Their early albums 'Black Sabbath', 'Paranoid', 'Master Of Reality', 'Vol. 4', 'Sabbath Bloody Sabbath', and 'Sabotage' are all without doubt, masterpieces, and without them Doom-Metal (or even metal in general) would not exist at all.

Whilst Black Sabbath were definitely well ahead of their time, and as such one of a kind, they certainly weren't without their contemporaries (Pentagram, Blue Cheer, Black Widow). Some of the earliest prototypes of Doom-Metal were in fact songs of the late sixties and early seventies that, whilst not wholly doomy, contained countless great riffs that came to shape the sound of Doom-Metal in later years. Such songs include Iron Butterfly's 'Inna Gadda Da Vida'.

One of Black Sabbath's main contemporaries - Pentagram - can be counted as one of the earliest Doom bands around, often intertwining with the band Bedemon one could perhaps best label their style of music as "Proto Doom". Black Sabbath has a huge impact on their sound but they focused more on the doomy side of this style. Thus creating some of the first ever Doom-metal records!


The eighties...


The 1980s brought with them the first bona fide Doom-Metal acts. This was the era in which bands such as Def Leppard, Warrant, and Bon Jovi came to the foregrounds and professed to be "heavy metal", and where thrash/speed and death metal bands ruled the metal scene.

The press also applied the term "heavy metal" in a nasty pigeonholing manner to any band that wore tight spandex and big hair. Whilst there are so many bands during that time that were truly deserving to fly under the banner of Doom-Metal, they were vastly outnumbered by these Glam-metal acts. The eighties were also known for the end period of the NWOBHM, another semi-fast style of metal. So in an era where speed was the prominent factor in extreme music, Doom-Metal acts where greatly outnumbered, but this is the era where Doom-metal was mostly developed and created a name for itself.

 One 80s band that made Doom big was Trouble. Originally from Chicago, this band got together in 1979 but gained popularity from 1984 onwards. Trouble's music stands for slow, dragging heavy metal, clearly influenced by Black Sabbath. Due to Christian beliefs of the band and its effect on their lyrics the band initially fell under the label White-metal.

Saint Vitus, another early doom-oriented band, had perhaps the biggest influence on the Doom-metal landscape (together with Candlemass). Their early work was on SST (Greg Ginn from Black Flag's label) and was mostly fronted by Wino who gained more fame later with semi-doom majors The Obsessed. Wino became one of the most legendary figures of Doom-metal in his own right. From his beginnings with The Obsessed, moving on to St. Vitus, and re-forming The Obsessed, he became one of the most prominent and influenctial figures within the Doom-metal scene. He now frequents the Stoner scene with his current band Spirit Caravan.

 In 1986, Swedish band Candlemass released the album 'Epicus Doomicus Metallicus', a milestone in early Doom-Metal. Once called "the heaviest band in the world" they picked up where Black Sabbath left off in 1976. The material on 'Epicus Doomicus Metallicus' was in the same style as old Black Sabbath (with Ozzy) but with modern contemporary influences. Candlemass' best years were those with vocalist Messiah Marcolin, a man with an exceptionally clear, deep voice. For doom newbies the CD 'As It Is, As It Was: The Best Of Candlemass' (Music For Nations, 1994) gives a good overview of their works.

Another doom pioneer in the late eighties was Lee Dorrian's band Cathedral. When Lee left Napalm Death in 1989 nobody expected such a volte face. As opposed to Napalm Death's ultra-fast music Cathedral's first releases were ultraslow, super-heavy doom in its purest form. Check out the albums 'In Memorium' and 'Forest Of Equilibrium'. Cathedral's later works are more seventies-rock oriented and the doom atmosphere has slowly faded away.

One label that was very important to this first generation of Doom-metal, and was mainly active during the very end of the eigthies to the mid nineties, was the Hellhound Label. This label signed a great deal of Doom-metal acts whose sound later became known as the "hellhound sound", industriously forming a clear foundation for future Doom-metal acts to build upon. Bands like The Obsessed and Count Raven released many records through this label.


The nineties...


 The early 90s heralded a change in the Doom-Metal landscape. With Death-metal having taken over the metal torch halfway through the eighties, Doom-Metal enjoyed a revival. New bands emerged that sought a mix between original Doom-Metal and Death-metal. Early pioneers like Winter with their release 'Into Darkness' in 1990 and Thergothon with their brilliant demo 'Fhragn-nagh Yog-Sothoth' in 1991 broke through the original boundaries of traditional Doom-Metal and formed the building blocks for modern day Doom-Metal. Lets also however not forget a band like diSEMBOWELMENT.

Bands like Winter, Thergothon and diSEMBOWELMENT could not gain the success later doom bands would have with this new style. Three bands from England, whom all shared the same label, Peaceville, propelled the Death/Doom genre to the level at which it stands today; Paradise Lost being the first with their release of 'Lost Paradise' in 1990 (which still had a strong death-metal influence). With 'Gothic' in 1991 they however almost single-handed set the standard for modern-day doom.

 Fellow label mates My Dying Bride succeeded in opening the gates for countless new Doom-Metal bands. Their first official release on Peaceville, 'Symphonaire Infernus Et Spera Empyrium', in 1991 already showed this band was destined for greatness and with their second full length 'Turn Loose the Swans' in 1993 they set their status as the largest modern-day Doom-Metal band. Another influence on this new form of Doom-Metal was the third Peaceville band called Anathema. Despite being one of "the big three" they always remained the smallest and least influential.

Also worth mentioning is that at the beginning of the ninties, a band called Earth (no, not Black Sabbath with their orignal name) created some of the heaviest Sabbath influenced music ever. This band became a huge influence on so-called "Drone Doom", an extreme form of Doom-metal.

Nor can we overlook the rise of an odd child within the Doom family, Sludge Doom; very heavy, miserable sounding Doom-metal that perhaps lacks the mournfull and emotions of Doom but fills those with pure filth, discust and anger. Of course also attoning to the teaching of Black Sabbath.

Midway through the nineties the need for experimentation within the metal genre as a whole also touched the Doom-Metal genre. Bands like The 3rd and the Mortal created a more atmospheric type of doom with albums like Tears Laid in Earth' and were one of the first metal bands to have a fulltime female lead singer. Following in the wake of Thergothon, slower and more extreme acts than normal Death/Doom also started to emerge like Funeral, Skepticism and Esoteric. The experimentation "disease" lead to the many different types of Doom-Metal we know today. From the slow and emotionless sounds of Esoteric, Evoken and Skepticism to the Gothic/Doom-Metal hybrids like Theatre of Tragedy. And let's not forget that there is a whole host of new and old bands who still play the orignal style of Doom from the 80s.

 Owing to this flurry of experimentation, the boundaries between genres faded and various great Doom-Metal giants moved away from the sound they helped create, giving the whole Doom-Metal genre a creative input of which we have not yet seen the last. The new millenium has already proven that by making 2001 one of the best years for heavy Doom since the early ninties. This indeed promises much for the future...

 

What is DOOM?

This is a short assay that I could find by now best answearing of this question.

The originnal location is as below--one of the best websites for we all DOOMSTERS. \m/

http://www.doom-metal.com/

What is DOOM??

 This is probably one of the trickiest questions to answer and has been the issue of many heated debates. There are however a few things that we can be certain about.

Doom-metal is a sub-genre of the highly diverse metal genre. This means that the first criteria will always be that the music must be metal at its core. There are also many misconceptions about what metal really is, but that particular topic does not fall within the scope of this article.

Whilst the general public may think that all music belonging to this genre sounds very alike, if one takes the time to scrutinise the genre it is apparent that the real situation is very different from this. If this is the case, what makes doom-metal so different from other metal genres? One answer is that doom-metal is filled with heaviness, darkness, sadness, depression and melancholy. It emanates a dark and brooding atmosphere that cannot be found with such intensity in any other genre.

 For some, the earliest examples of doom albums are Black Sabbath's self-titled debut album, and their second album, 'Paranoid'. Both of these records were released in 1970 upon a largely unexpecting audience. Whilst the first album retained a heavy dose of Sabbath's blues roots, "Paranoid" remains one of their darkest records. This leads some people to hail Black Sabbath as the originators of doom-metal. Whilst this opinion is a controversial one, Black Sabbath are definitely one of the founders of modern heavy metal. To claim that Black Sabbath is a doom band would be misleading in that it would be akin to saying that all metal bands have doom influences because they depict the dark side of music. Still, it must be said that Black Sabbath heavily influenced the bands that genuinely helped form the doom-metal genre. However, this is not to say that Black Sabbath did not play an important role in creating the metal genre as a whole.

Several forms of Doom-Metal have existed since 1970 or thereabouts, but most doom bands originated in the late 80s and onwards. Bands such as Trouble, Saint Vitus and Candlemass are examples of some of the earliest doom-metal bands. The descriptive label "doom-metal" is attributed to Candlemass' 'Epicus Doomicus Metallicus' album, although some believe the term comes from the Black Sabbath song 'Hand of Doom'. The bands of the past used clean vocals and it is therefore a misconception that a band needs to resort to grunts to be considered part of the doom-metal genre.

 For a full overview of the history of Doom-metal it is advisable to visit that section of our page. However one more thing that is still worth mentioning about it is that fact that the bands mentioned so far are often referred to as being the more traditional doom-metal bands. There are still a great deal of good bands around that employ this style (Solitude Aeturnus for example), but you also these days have many other styles of doom. One of the best known these days is a more or less "second generation Doom-metal", and the Doom-metal most "new" fans will know; Death/Doom-Metal. This further fuels the debate as to what truly constitutes Doom-Metal.

Death/Doom-metal, is thought of by many as a reaction to death-metal, just like death-metal originated from thrash metal. As a reaction to the incredibly fast death-metal riffs some bands began playing ultra slowly, with low-pitched guitars and dragging grunts. One of the most noteworthy examples of this is Lee Dorian, formerly the vocalist of Napalm Death, who started his own band: Cathedral. The early Cathedral albums were extremely slow.

This brings us to another possible factor that can be used to define doom-metal. It is slow music, in sharp contrast to most metal. This has given rise to a school of critics that dismiss doom-metal as being a"boring" genre in which little ever happens. As with any genre, there exists some indubitably talentless, thoroughly unoriginal bands out there who are indeed boring, but in general saying that Doom-metal is boring means that one has not been paying attention to the music. One of the true attributes of Doom-metal is that it can be extremely slow, yet not at all boring.

 Although previously mentioned, it ought to be stressed that the sheer heaviness of the music is an important characteristic of the Doom-metal genre. This takes many shapes, from the gut-wrenching sounds of a band such as diSEMBOWELMENT, to the Sabbath-like riffs of St. Vitus, to the trancendental sounds of Esoteric, and the romantic depression of My Dying Bride. All these bands share a quest for heaviness in their music.

At times, this also leads Doom-metal close to another genre called "Stoner-rock". Both genres clearly strive to create the heaviest sound ever and often intermix (indeed there is such a grey area as Stoner/Doom). However one misconception made by a lot of Stoner fans is the notion that pure Stoner rock or Stoner/Doom is the only form of Doom (sometimes referred to as "True Doom" by fans, but not to be confused with the "True Doom" as claimed by a small number of Traditional and Epic Doom-metal diehards). On the same tack however, the ignorant ideas of some Death/Doom fans that theirs is the only true form of Doom-metal is equally insupportable, this being the cause for many a heated debate. We would rather concentrate on the great diversity Doom-metal has to offer us.

 In all fairness, an attempt at defining doom-metal by way of its sound is akin to trying to define a race solely by its appearance. In today's rather varied market, we have slow, hurtful doom-metal. We have medium-paced, harmonic doom-metal. We have occasional moments of really fast, energetic doom-metal. We even have doom-metal you can play at a Pagan festival. Although it isn't strictly essential, we have many doom-metal bands that employ harmonic instruments such as the violin, synthesiser, flute, and so on. We even have doom-metal being mixed with other styles such as techno-industrial, black metal or classical music.